GM's of a broken heart

.hey guys.

.dis past few days i knw u hav receivd a lot of gm's & i just want to share it sa mga pards nating wla me cell number.XD.

.share ur blessings, share ur pain, guys.

.i never thought i'd ever talk to you, never blvd it posbl dat i cud fall 4 u even.mayb i watchd 2 many soap operas, heard 2 many luv sngs, wshd 2 many wshes & dreamd 2 many dreams when i thought u'l b der to catch me when i fell.i guess der's nothin i cud do but stand up once again even though it hurts n walk on as if nothin happened.

.i'm a fool for blvn dat you'll learn to love me back.i dreamed that you'll see me the way that i see you when i should've known better, that dreams are just for foolish people who have nothing to do at night.i wished that you would stay by my side forever when i knew wishes just don't come true.i hoped that you'll leave her but i guess hope wasn't of much help.in other words, i'm just a fool who foolishly believed in you.

.i had a dream that we were happy, i had a dream that we were glad, i had a dream that we were friends, i had a dream we weren't mad.but then again it's just a dream and a dream it will remain, but still i'll dream and dream you'll love me, though i know i dream in vain.

.as i look out my window and see the rain drop from the heavens, i remember the day when i asked you if you love me and you replied with a curt "no.", i just laughed and said "no biggie.i was joking anyway."but what you didn't know is that like the raindrops today, a billion tears were shed because of those two mere letters that form that damned word... NO.

.here i am at kenny rogers, a plate of mouthwatering chicken in front of me, and for the first time i didn't feel hungry.i take my first bite and i can''t taste the chicken.why is that, you ask???because all i could think about is the what ifs i'll forever ask myself.what if you loved me and not her, would we live happily ever after?what if you cared, would it last forever? i guess it'll remain a what if and only a what if it will be.

.do you know what my fave stall in the mall is??? it's the candy stalls because of al the beautiful and happy colors.n when i see it i could imagine myself as a 2year old happily eating my pink lollipop.and when my mom calls me back to reality, i turn once more to the 14year old that's bleeding from a broken heart.

.i ate ice cream in hopes that i'll feel better.and yes, it did its job.i got a few minutes of pure joy just savouring my ice cream.but when i finished my last bite,here it goes again.the pain sunk in as if you jammed a knife unto my heart.the ice cream couldn't do anything,only you can.and i know you wouldn't do anything to help me 'coz you just don't care.

.that's that, guys.

.my blog for today.

.n my longest blog so far. XD